Feb. 23rd, 2019 02:16 pm

My mom

countessmry: Stiles in hospital bed (StilesSick)
Thank you so much to everyone who was so supportive last night when I was losing my mind. I was mentally frozen and also incapable of staying in one place for more than 5 minutes.

Mom is in the ER because of an infection, they think bronchitis, which developed after hip replacement surgery. So she’s coughing like crazy, in 10/10 pain every time she has to pee, and she’s having trouble breathing because of congestive heart failure. Oddly. This made me feel better. This is sadly the norm for my mom. So we are back into familiar territory. I’m hopeful that she will heal quickly but it’s not generally the case. She’s immunosuppressed as she had a kidney transplant after open heart surgery trashed her kidneys.

So here we are. It’s hard to feel a sense of emergency all of the time but none of the time, ya know? She feels like Job from the Bible who just gets plagues and pestilence over and over again but he still believes. My mom’s like that. She still finds joy. I find that amazing.
countessmry: Wonder Woman sticking out tongue at lizard (WonderWomanTongue)
Sooooo. I said last year that I was going to document my progress in vidding. I have done more in the last three months than I have in like a year or so but it's still not a lot and I'm not yet done with one vid. Part of my problem with the whole vidding process this time is that I'm now teaching myself Final Cut Pro and it's clunky to work with because I'm used to using Adobe Premiere. Also, a lot of the teaching guides for the program seem to be written without vidding in mind. It's a lot of talk about syncing audio and different video shots taken from different angles and all of that... I don't need that. I need to figure out a way to clip out this movie and put things together so I can finally get this done.

Also, it took me like six months to find a song for the thing.

I have finally finished recording an entire podfic. I've started the editing process on that and jeezy creezy I actually like the reading part but editing it is mostly mind numbing. This is a podfic that was won at an auction in 2014... so yeah. I've got to get this done. I've mostly recorded this fic three times. Once I lost it to a dead computer and once I lost interest in it and apparently deleted it. The last time I tried recording it with another person but completely fell out of that when I noticed the huge discrepancies in our audio quality (mine being horrible). I bought a new mic for myself and that has lead to better audio but it's kind of a bitch to set up. I was used to a headset mic and it's a snowball so it's stationary. I tend to be kind of flaily when speaking and reading podfic is no different so it was an adjustment. It was also hard to deal with literally getting it to the height I needed it to be in order to record.

So in conclusion, I've done more than before but less than I wanted.

Mostly because I've been watching a lot of documentaries on historical castle building and serial killers.
Feb. 17th, 2019 12:30 pm

My mom

countessmry: Stiles in hospital bed (StilesSick)
This week my mom finally got the hip replacement surgery that she's been needing for the last several years. Her bone was degenerating and it was to the point where it was actually tearing itself when she puts weight on it or sits or breathes or exists.

The surgery was a really scary one. They were saying she only had a 50% chance of surviving the surgery but she was in so much pain that she had to give it a shot. They canceled the surgery no less than 10 times because of other infections or illnesses. (She is already immunocompromised so they weren't willing to add issues to the surgery when her risk was already so high. Frustrating as hell but we understood it.)

She was in tremendous pain every day and I'm so glad that there's maybe some light at the end of the tunnel here. She's an incredible lovely human and she's one of my best and closest friends. Nothing is real until I talk to my mom or my sister about it.

So she's going to be in the hospital for probably a while because the surgery was complicated and she's got so many health issues to contend with at the same time. So thanks to everybody on twitter and facebook for being there, sending prayers, and sending love. It was nice to be surrounded by people just caring about my mom.
countessmry: Dylan O’Brien Black and white beauty (DylanBeauty)
So... I have this pretty new iMac and vidding on it is so much easier than working on a laptop. I'm making myself learn final cut pro because I already own that. I have a vid on a timeline for the first time in like years... I think.

I owe a few people vids so I figured I better start there. I'm vidding a source I'd never seen before it was requested and the movie is HILARIOUS so I'm hoping that the vid will do it a little justice. The problem is cutting the funny DOWN to a manageable size. That's a good problem to have. I'm mostly just throwing clips on the timeline and seeing if anything sticks.

Fingers crossed.
countessmry: Tyler Hoechlin hat sunny day (HoechlinSunny day)
I’ve been missing fandom a lot lately. I’ve missed being a contributing member in this lovely little world of ours.

I have a vid to make. This is my attempt to get myself motivated and hold myself accountable.

I came home from the final vivid con and just need to make vids again.

I’m on the train right now or else there would be more to talk about but this is a start.


countessmry: Dylan O’Brien Black and white beauty (Default)

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